It all started 6 weeks ago............

6 weeks ago, our belongings were being packed up, to be shipped from our home in Germany to our new home in El Paso, Texas. At this time, my best friend and worst enemy was packed away. The scale. For years, I've had a love hate relationship with said scale. Well, really any scale for that matter. I loved when it told me I was losing weight. I hated when it told me I had gained. In return, I hated myself. 

The sad, ugly truth is, I put my whole selves worth in that number. For years, that number defined who I was. The fact that I was a mother, a wife, or a friend didn't matter. I let that number define me.

So, when my scale was packed in a box, and then a crate, and then sent on it's way across the pond, I no longer could rely on it to ruin my day. I had to find new ways to make myself miserable. Or in this case, happy, self confident, and sane! 

You see, not having a scale to step on after every pee, poo, cough, look in the mirror, or random thought made things easier. Less stressful. I found myself more carefree. And you know what's even better? My pants started to get a wee bit looser. Or maybe it was the weight coming off my shoulders. Either way, I feel lighter and brighter. 

So, back to the point of this whole blog. I've been reading a book called Mirror, Mirror Off the Wall. It's about a woman, a recovering anorexic and sociologist, who decided to not look at herself in any mirror for a year. In hopes of improving her self image. And it gave me this idea. Of not weighing myself or knowing my weight (if say, at the doctors office, for instance) for an entire year (or possibly my whole life). I will only measure myself based on how my clothes fit and how I feel. I figure, what the heck, I've already done 6 weeks, what's a few more, right?

So, this is the unofficial start of my journey. I hope you all follow along for support and can possibly find some sort of inspiration in the process. 

In closing, I want to give a special shout out to my wonderful and supportive husband. My daughters. And to my good friend Sarah Brown for believing in me and being my inspiration.